Fear Assignment Part One

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“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”

- Frank Herbert

I use this quote because every time I think of fear, it pops into my head.  Fear is the thing that freezes you, it drops every human being from an intelligent being into a creature that knows only instinct, knows only "fight or flight".  It is the awful thing in the pit of your stomach that prevents you from doing anything at all sometimes.  

Fear is a useful tool, it keeps us alive, it keeps us safe, it makes us stronger and faster by releasing adrenaline into our bloodstream.  However sometimes we fear things that we can do nothing about, and that is when fear hurts us, paralyzes us, prevents us from accomplishing what we need to.  It is that one portion of our life that we seemingly have no control of, it's the thing that slowly creeps up on us as we lie in bed in the dark, trying to sleep.  

I think fear can inspire us and hold us back in equal measure.  Another author I read Chuck Pahlaniuk says, "Write about what scares you the most.  Write about what disgusts you, what makes you uneasy.  Those thoughts are what makes art."  I have to agree, as many of the best songs, movies, and books play with the idea of fear, or toss around various concepts of fear, but at the same time, it can be extremely difficult to confront fear head on like that, and not everyone is able to.  

Quite frankly, I'm not entirely sure how I will be with this assignment, presenting it and whatnot.  I guess we'll see.

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As to how I think people will react to my experiment, I'm not entirely sure.  I'm afraid that some will not understand what I'm trying to do/won't go along with it, and I think that some people will enjoy it and go along with it just fine.  I'm really not entirely sure, as this class is interesting.  I am worried that it might hit some people kind of hard, which I really don't want, but at the same time, I'm interested to see who is okay with the concept and who is not. 

I think it will make some people think very long and hard about themselves and about what my topic is, which unfortunately I can't talk about here.

What the Bleep?

While not a bad movie, I'm not entirely sure if I agreed with everything presented in the film What the Bleep? that we were presented in class.  They did present some very interesting truths, such as the whole idea of you can force yourself to feel better and become happy just by essentially pretending to be happy, this process is sometimes labelled "fake it until you make it" and is quite often used in self-help books.  It's funny because the whole mind over matter bit does work for quite a few people.

However they continued to explore this idea and did something which I considered a load of complete crap with the water experiment, when they took water droplets, said words like "love" and "hate" around it and then froze it, and the good emotions created beautiful crystals, but the bad emotions created not good looking ones.  I could almost see this working if every time they used a specific word around the water, it would freeze in a specific way, but that was not the case.  Beauty is entirely subjective so saying one is more beautiful than the other isn't particularly scientific to begin with.  Also, the fact that water, when frozen, will create a unique pattern every single time leads me to believe that if the process were repeated thousands of times, eventually the good words would create ugly crystals and vice versa.  

Overall though, I did think the movie did a decent job at simplifying and explaining quantum mechanics in a way that almost anyone could understand, and showing how at the quantum level things begin to react with entirely different rules than what we are traditionally used to.  It's fascinating stuff really, particularly the idea that the vast majority of the universe consists of nothing.  Just simple void.  It's hard to imagine, but it's true.  It's even more interesting that everything we see, react with, touch, etc. is merely the outer layer of electrons, nothing else.

Class Take Away (11/11)

Unfortunately I was not able to be in class due to some personal issues that arose, so I really can't comment too much on what I took away from class.  At the same time though, I didn't want to not turn anything in, so I decided to send this little blog post in, hoping for the best.

I am looking forward to the fear assignment though, I think it might be one of the most interesting assignments I'll have in any of my classes, so I am quite excited for it.  Also a bit nervous, but I suppose that is to be expected saying its supposed to be what you fear the most.

Class Take Away (11/4)

I thought the Bliss assignment was rather interesting overall, especially considering how differently everyone spent their three hours, and all the different kinds of "happy places" we all had.  Personally, for me, I think the Bliss assignment went rather well as it led me to think about what kind of state I do my best work in, and what things I enjoy the most: which are high energy experiences like punk rock shows and the like.  After the fact, I feel so energized that I feel like I can take on anything.

This feeling I think really helps me creatively as it allows me to force my way through some of the "blocks" that I hit, it also gets me in the mood to do something, which I think is the first major step that needs to be taken to be creative.  Apathy is what kills it and my "happy place" forces me to not be apathetic at all.

The whole thing was definitely an interesting experiment and I enjoyed it quite a lot, especially when I got to explain to my roommate and friends that I was going to the Rocky Horror Picture Show for class, which was totally worth it.

Vision Board

I've always sort of thought that vision boards were essentially a load of snake oil.  I mean, seriously, the whole concept is silly in my opinion.  The universe doesn't care what you write down on a board, it doesn't really care what you want either, it just ... is essentially, so the whole concept doesn't make a whole lot of sense to me.

I think that they fall under the whole "paradox of self-help" that exists.  Essentially the idea is this, you get a bunch of self-help books, you read them, you understand what you need to do to make things in your life better, and then that's it.  You stop there and you think that knowing what is wrong in your life is magically going to make everything better, it's going to make everything work out.  Except that it doesn't, you need to take some form of action to change things, knowledge, while important, doesn't change the world, only actions taken due to the knowledge you have change the world.  I hope that makes sense.

This vision board assignment was rather difficult for me to be completely honest, because like I said, I don't really agree with the idea fundamentally, but I think I found a method that works for me.  I made a sort of business card thing that allows me to keep track of what I'm doing, and helps me record the habits I need to work on and fix.  I don't know if it counts as a vision board per se, but I think that it will help me more than a normal vision board will.